It's about life. About what we don't remember. But if you appropriate this experience to yourself, it will become clearer about yourself and others.
It was a long time ago. You won't remember. You were so small, and no one knew that you are yet. But your strength and desire to live were enormous. You didn't think about anything - you had to survive. Then you dug so deeply into your mother's flesh and sprouted there that your mother's body began to create a separate place for you. You ate all the beneficial micronutrients that mom had. And during that period, the desire to survive was the strongest. You didn't think that the microelements that you consume should have belonged to your mother, that her belly is growing, which means that the figure deteriorates. Your body has grown and developed. You wanted to LIVE.
It was the strongest surviving part of you, which you eventually began to forget about.
Besides the body, you have a soul. The soul is different. She comes into this world with a Body, and maybe even earlier. And at the level of the Soul, you know everything. You know how worried my mother was - whether she can handle it, whether she can stand it, how her hormones jumped, and hence her mood. You saw how her life was changing, and slowly, with the desire to live, your guilt grew. It seemed to you that you were to blame for the fact that mom was sick, that she did not fit into any dress, that she had to go to the hospital, that she was uncomfortable sleeping. Sometimes you tried to cheer her up, but she even then sighed and asked to calm down.
Further more. You born. And for a while you were yourself and could provide yourself with the care of adults with your voice and behavior. But then something happened. I don't know at what point or why. You have forgotten that you are loved unconditionally. You decided that the mood of those around you depends solely on you. You wanted to be liked so much that the desire to live was dulled, in its place came the ability to adapt.
Both parts live in you. One - an animal - wants to live. The second - emotional - wants love. It is often difficult to reconcile them. But in any case - it's all you.
And, yes, I forgot to remind you, at that moment when you began to grow into your mother's flesh, the whole World, your entire Generic System, the entire Universe told you YES. They were waiting for you. You are important. And if at least someone in this world told you NO, you would not be here. At the level of the body and head, we utter many words that have nothing to do with our Soul. It is not always necessary to hear the words, but always try to hear the Soul. Sometimes she screams louder.
Each has its own story. We need these stories for experience. They are needed so that, despite the words and actions of those who are older, stronger, more traumatized than you, YOU could live and help others live.
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Return in memory to the place where your strength to LIVE was stronger than the fear of your parents "not to cope". Remember yourself then and look at yourself now. You can be both bad and good - this means that you can live and feel. You can be wrong.
And when you agree that the part of you that survived due to the strength and health of another is YOU … at that moment you will allow yourself to live.
You will accept yourself and this one too. Because the whole world was waiting for you.
Because when you allow yourself to live, then you will allow others to live like you. There are still no people in this world who could be born without touching their mother's body. We all give something and take something.
Just keep your balance. If you took from an equal - give the same or more. If you took it from the elder, pass it on to the younger. And then remind the kid how good it is that he is.
AND LIVE.
Astropsychologist, constellator Polina Vinnik
