There was no light, no sound, no tunnel, which is written in books and said by those who were there. I just saw myself from the outside. At the same time, there was no feeling that you were sleeping. It was a very real sensation of reality, except that I no longer hurt.
I felt good, calm and easy, as in childhood. I stroked my hand. She was warm and rough. There were many people nearby. They ran, shouted something, fussed and made noise. I did not care. This does not concern me now, it remains there, and I am already here.
Amazing! I always imagined that it would be scary, painful and inevitable. Nothing like this! All suffering remained there. There is none of this here. I took a deep breath of incredible relief. All! It's over.
And somewhere inside I sank.
Word. So sweet, kind and for some reason forgotten …
Mum
I imagined what would happen when this man in a white coat informs her in person or by phone. Probably by phone. Mom today on shift and has not gathered to me.
Mum
Promotional video:
How will she be there alone?
She will also be here … someday …
Will be, but when? After ten years? Twenty?
She's only forty-five. And I am alone with her.
Was alone.
Mum
I looked at myself again, closed my eyes and groaned … I felt her … pain again.
Life and pain.
And there was no second me, there was no peace and quiet. Nothing.
I returned.
It will pass. I have to live.
